the other 2 embryos stopped growing. they didn’t make it.

with meeting with our doctor tomorrow, we’re hoping a lot of our questions will be answered. to start with 21 eggs and only make it to 1 frozen embryo is honestly devastating. I’m crushed. I feel defeated. I feel broken.

I’m going to be taking a couple days off of social media. one of the hardest things about this infertility journey is the fact that you can’t escape it. children are everywhere. pregnant bellies are everywhere. my livelihood as a newborn and family photographer means that not even my job can give me temporary relief from something that is always on my mind. something that I want so desperately, and void of. and right now, I just need a break from it all.

this is hard. this is so, so hard. I don’t wish this on anyone.

this isn’t meant to be a pity post. this is the cycle of this process. a devastating blow, a day or two to cry it out, and then we pick up, chins up and strong, and start all over again. we’ll get through this. we always do. we have for the last 2 years.

tomorrow will bring us answers. we’ll have a path and a game plan, and as soon as I’m ready to jump back into functioning as an adult again- I promise to keep you informed. I know there are so many of you invested in our story and cheering for us, and even though it’s been said a million times- it means the world to us. truly. thank you.