I’ve been on and off of a cocktail of fertility and hormone drugs for the last 12 months. clomid, menopur, gonal-f, endometrin, cetrotide, lupron, ovidrel.

and nothing, NOTHING compares to the last month that I’ve had to be, and continue to be on, birth control. these are blue pills of awfulness. seriously.

next monday is the start of IVF cycle #2! it’s comforting to know what is it to come, and the impatient side of me just wants it to be the end of august so I know what happened and what our outcome is. once again, here we are- on the precipice of this huge emotional and physical rollercoaster. waiting, waiting, waiting for the ride to start.