this morning was an exciting morning! the first ultrasound appointment to see how I am responding to the medication!

for those not familiar with the infertility world, what you’re looking at is my follicles in my ovaries being measured. the goal is to have a good number of follicles to produce mature eggs to be able to collect and fertilize. you don’t want too many, because hyperstimulation can be painful and dangerous. and on the flipside, you ideally don’t want too few follicles because the chances significantly decrease of getting an embryo that makes it all the way through fertilization. dr. kolb aims to be able to collect 15 eggs.

today I had 6 follicles on my left ovary (measuring at 7, 9, 9, 9, 10, and 10mm) and 8 follicles on my right ovary (measuring at 8, 8, 9, 10, 10, 10, 10, and 11mm). the goal is to get as many as possible to 18-20 mm, which signifies a mature egg, and I’m on the right track to getting there!

and now begins the delicate dance of medications to keep everything growing, but not too fast. on sunday we’ll be introducing a third shot into the nightly injections, which is used to slow down the effects of the first two shots. I go back to see dr. kolb on monday, and then every day or every other day leading up the egg retrieval checking on the growth, monitoring my estrogen and progesterone levels, and adjusting the doses of all my drugs accordingly. it’s amazing and equally weird to view yourself as a human science experiment…but I’m in awe and grateful for where technology is for us to be able to do what we’re doing.

when I left my appointment this morning, I felt excited. and dare I say, optimistic. and honestly, I haven’t felt that way in a long, long time. and you know what? it feels good. I’m trying to hold onto this feeling for as long as I can.

I sent a text message to my therapist with my updated follicle count, and she responded back with, “maybe one of your babies is in there.”